09-10-2019 12:18 AM
09-10-2019 12:54 AM
09-10-2019 03:54 PM
@Sans911you have come so far in a short amount of time. You should be proud of yourself.
Your courage to write such a raw post is encouraging
09-10-2019 05:58 PM
I so very much agree with @Snowie here @Sans911 You have come so far and accomplished so much. You have taken massive steps to keep yourself safe, fill your days with worthwhile things, helped other people along the way and done your study even through your ongoing MH issues as well as the physical ones. You are an inspiration in all that you do and all that you fight your way through Hon. It is not just the way you fight but the real and raw sharing you have done here along the way (as @Snowie has said) - your journey has not been at all an easy one but with everything you have fought your way through you have become stronger and that strength has helped others here as well. It is an absolute pleasure to have been along part of this journey with you and an even bigger pleasure to know you.
09-10-2019 06:06 PM
Had to edit & repost.
Thanks hun @Snowie. That's really nice of you to say. And I am proud of how far I've come. I got a notification on my memories feed on fb this morning that it's four years since I came home. Four years since my breakdown. Leaves me with a mix of emotions. So it's actually been a long journey since then. And I don't talk so much here anymore about my suicidal ideation, which although decreased in intensity, is still very regular. I had a very, very bad low in hospital where I really wanted to do some significant harm or worse to myself. And there are days and nights when I wrestle with doing harm, fighting urges that threaten to derail me. But I rarely talk about that because I'm trying to focus on living each day with something good about it, no matter how small that is. Even if it's just a shower. My future looks very different now to how I wanted & imagined it would be and I'm trying to come to terms with that and be OK about it. I can't change my past either, but I can try to come to some level of acceptance about it. I will never stop longing for a different story without so much loss and sadness, but I'm also the unique person I am today because of that story. I know that one day your days will be a little better Snowie. I can guarantee it. It's super hard to believe that where you are at. But you have more strength than you realise, you have compassion, empathy and love for others in boundless quantities. Don't forget to give some of that to yourself because you damn deserve it for the hell you've been and are going through. One day you will tell a similar, yet unique story of how you fought your way out of the darkness. Much love and hugs ❤️ 💜 💙 💜 💙
09-10-2019 06:16 PM
09-10-2019 06:20 PM
Mutual respect and admiration here @Sans911 We have both come so far and part of that has been your support - so never underestimate how much you have given to my life either or how much I value your friendship too. Love having you in my life - makes it just that little bit easier to get through each day
10-10-2019 08:05 AM
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