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[Queenie]

My friends are fighting with me over invitations for my gf and I commitment ceremony.

My family is refusing to talk to me.

Feeling really depressed.

Just feel like giving in and doing something I haven't done in years and for that, I feel really disappointed in myself for even thinking that way. I haven't harmed myself in years and I know if I were to do it now, I'd jeopardise everything I have in my life which keeps me going, but I still have the feelings yeah. Not proud of it and not looking for attention or anything, just venting. I think I'll let my gf take control of my medications for the time being.

😞 Thanks for reading

[NikNik]

Hi @Queenie

You shouldn't be so tough on yourself - actually, you should be really proud of yourself for noticing the urges and using the forums to come and connect, and share what you're going through.

It sounds like you have a lot to deal with, with your family and friends, giving yourself a guilt trip is the last thing you need.

Thoughts are just thoughts, you haven't done anything bad - it's okay. It's what you do with those thoughts that makes the difference.

[Kurra]

What @NikNik said @Queenie. 😗

[outlander]

Hugs @Queenie 💪💪💪