Lived Experience Forum

[justcoz]

Hi all

After yesterdays debacle , (was a bit of a mess). I dropped one of the anxietys of the title am better today.

Introducing myself am female, 57years, have a great sense of humour and apparently i make myself laugh all the time. Well someone has to aye. Have depression and anxiety but i find its the anxiety that floors me .

Have had some tough times but i have come threw it ok , i still have the ability to laugh which is very important to me.

My biggest fear for the last few years is human beings. They just keep hurting so now i keep to myself , I dont see anyone just when i go to pick up groceries. It is odd as I can talk to anyone , strangers dont bother me unless i am in a group therapy session.

I dont much like the world because of the humans in it now if humans acted like dogs i would be in heavon but alas they dont.

When ever i have tried with humans my depression comes back and anxiety goes threw roof so i would rather not.

I have 2 great adult children that mainly accept how i am. My son did say "i was like a paralysed rabbit living in my den" which is true i said but least i am alive.Most days I am quite ok with being me , sometimes it gets to me. And i have a wonderful bestie and we keep in contact by phone. I am ok with my own company always have been

I went out today (yay me) but i find i breathe a sigh of relief when I get home as the pressure is off to get out , like phew done that do not have to do it for a couple weeks.

So I am hoping that i do continue to post .

Am giving all your fur baby's hug as they are the best

Cheers

[tyme]

Very interesting to see you post my life @justcoz !

The world thinks I'm as social as ever, but in reality, it takes A LOT for me to get out. In a way, I think i use 'work' as an excuse to withdraw from social situations.

I mean, when I do go, I have to say I enjoy it, but the stress of doing it ALL AGAIN, simply does not seem worth it!

I always get invited to functions, and people love hanging out with me (so they say), but yes, I hear you when you say it's the anxiety that floors you.

I end up pushing myself to get out because I know it's in my best interests. Maybe one day I will learn to 'like' it...but for now, I feel the same as you. On the other hand, maybe that's my personality, and that's also totally ok? I guess it's about whether you feel this anxiety hinders you from achieving what you want in life.

To be honest, I'm so satisfied with my life, that I'm not sure I want to change and be more 'social'. I think I go out more for other people sometimes.

Live and learn. I hope you find the connection here that you are looking for @justcoz !

tyme

[justcoz]

Thankyou

I feel that most people dont understand how i can be content most of the time , I would say i have given in to the anxiety . It takes a enormous amount of energy to fight it and i am tired of fighting it . Not everyone needs to be social to be ok.

[tyme]

I hear you @justcoz ,

I know the energy it takes out of me to go out for a social event. The energy it takes leading up to the event, the energy it takes during the event, and the energy it takes after the event.

If you are content, is there a need to change?

I don't believe I will ever be a social butterfly - I accept that and am more than happy with that. I rather have few loyal people i communicate with, over thousands of small-talk relationships.

I hope I'm on the right track.

Please know you are certainly not alone.

tyme

[Krishna]

Hi and welcome @justcoz  Can certainly relate to everything you’ve said and I’m really happy to read you still have your sense of humour. I’d be well and truly lost without mine. Laugh at myself often. I’m the same with shopping my only intentional communication with others and can easily chat away to strangers and find it amusing when some are actually startled by that hahaha. As for social engagements we’ll that’s a different story. The stress I experience leading up to it is ridiculous from what will I wear to the thought of being in a room full of people talking at different volumes. I like the saying “Introverts unite. Separately. In our own homes”. I’m a home body enjoying my garden and work a few hours per week at a local plant nursery doing garden maintenance, nice company are plants. I too have two adult children, a daughter with schizophrenia and a son. Neither live at home anymore. I’ve seen some bad times with my anxiety also but have survived thus far. Some days better than others depending on how I feed my thoughts. It’s hard work hey! Anyways, welcome to the forums and keep laughter as your friend always. 🙏😄

[mskpop]

Hello i am Kylie, 49 who looks 29 lol, Adelaide

I have now come to understand what i suffer from mental health

For a long time i constantly worried about things 

I am very sensitive person so i can get offended by certain words 

Lately my life has been hell and would like some advice on my rights as a tenant 

I have been living in Torrensville, Adelaide suburb for last 2 and half years and love it here, the place i reside in used to be a nursing home, now transformed into residential area, there is 10 people living here like i said big property, 

2 housemates that moved in last year around mid June we were all getting along so well

until 23 October last year.  A new housemate R... (who has moved out since then) he resided for a few months here, on the day of 23 oct is when he moved in.

So R..., the two K....s (i call them now), and me went to a hotel to have a nice dinner, R... had a few beers before we left thank goodness he was a passenger and not driving, get to the hotel meal was nice except R... said colorful words where children was present i was uncomfortable i am surprised the parents did not say anything, then as we were on our way home the female k was driving her partner behind her and i was in front passenger seat, and drunken R... was behind me.  Well he thought he would do something funny and open car door while in motion, i turned around and told him to close the door its illegal.

Then when we got home i expressed myself on Facebook saying how we could have been  seriously injured or worse if female K had crashed the car. I was expressing my feelings it was scary

female K (was FB friend) showed R..., he thinks i had said he tired to end me, if he had read it bloody properly i noted we COULD have been k.....d!

Ever since that day my life has been hell, I have been to urgent mental health care several times because of them, lately they have been targetting me, i have an intellectual disability so you guys are aware

There is bathroom next door to my room, i always clean up after myself (karen being an cleaner herself)  would sometimes clean the bathroom helping landlord out I love my landlord but lately has been favoring them which makes it hard on me, anyways so they end up putting a sign on the door, my landlord has asked me to use the male/unisex  bathroom, since the K complained that i had a lot of my crap in there which I DID NOT i only had a little basket with my shampoo, conditioner and bath gel, up by the shower/bath and there were a few mops in there none were mine btw, and plastic bag full of crap few items were mine the rest was not, all they could have asked me was to kindly take them out instead being bitches about it, so now been using the mens/unisex bathroom, i love the shower in there has a seat where you can pull down and sit have your shower at the same time, well recently they have placed 2 signs, 1 on enter door saying "this door is to be locked, when in use" i thought that went for everyone, found out from one housemate who i absolutely trust here, he noted they were targetting me, so got upset playing with items that may harm my body went to UMHC and got help.

Wednesday i went to go use bathroom and the main toilet with my favorite shower has a sign "Men only, with female symbol with the circle and cross out line", i was really offended there is 2 other showers one head is faulty as hell and the other has no shower head at all, so once again UMHC, how the hell am i supposed to shower i am so sick of people targeting me i have threatened to end my life or self harm cause of these people

I cannot move from where i am i have promised my folks and sticking with it, I have holiday coming up in March/April that i do hope i get too

I need advice what can i do, i want to press charges for discrimination and victimization 

What are my rights?

Please i am at my wits end

my folks saying just to keep quiet and move on 

but i can't its too painful i want some sort of justice done

they can't get away with this

[mskpop]

Please response feel like I will self harm crying out loud please help, if I tell disability advocacy, I have let landlord know, one housemate I trust says I am on thin ice, when I never done anything wrong, he is the same boat as me but has more positive and moving forward I may get kicked out for sticking up for myself, that is discrimination

[Paperdaisy]

Hey @mskpop You sound really distressed. I'm going to send you an email. Please stay safe and call crisis support if you feel you need to. 

[Alexia42]

I'm new to this just joined yesterday. I can totally relate to what you said. I suffer from anxiety & depression. It's a huge effort to get out to a function, birthday celebration, dinner etc ...the lead up of anxiety to it, during it then afterwards I need a day or two to recover. I'm an introvert so find it hard to socialise and smile & be in a happy mood so no one hopefully can tell how I'm feeling. I wish I could find it fun or enjoyable, I just feel like I should be going and force myself to.

I feel my anxiety getting worse recently due to a close friendship drifting apart..I've reached out and no reply ...

Any advise would be welcome or if you feeling the same. @justcoz 

[Paperdaisy]

Anxiety is so awful isn't it @Alexia42 what sorts of things do you do to try and help with it? 

I have been tapping recently, which I have found really helpful.