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[JustinSane]

Still struggling to come to terms with the loss of my Mother. I wrote this poem to try and express the pain and reconcile myself to this terrifying reality. If any of you have lost someone I hope you can relate to end but I sincerely hope it doesn't cause you any additional pain. 

SINCE YOU WENT AWAY

THE SUN'S NO LONGER WARM
SADNESS IS MY NEW NORM
I FIND IT HARD TO SMILE
EACH STEP FEELS LIKE A MILE
THERE SEEMS NO POINT TO PRAY
SINCE YOU WENT AWAY

I'VE LOST ALL BELIEF
AM CONSUMED BY GRIEF
HAVE NO APPETITE
LIE WIDE AWAKE EACH NIGHT
DREADING THE LIGHT OF DAY
SINCE YOU WENT AWAY 

I STARE OFF INTO SPACE
A BLANK LOOK ON MY FACE
STILL ALIVE YET INSIDE
FEEL I'VE ALREADY DIED
LEFT THE STAGE, END OF PLAY
SINCE YOU WENT AWAY

ALL MY LIMBS FEEL STIFF
I'VE FALLEN OFF A CLIFF
NOTHING CAN ARREST
THIS FALL, TILL I'M AT REST
CAN'T KEEP SADNESS AT BAY
SINCE YOU WENT AWAY

MY TEARS CONSTANTLY FLOW
PAIN IS ALL KNOW
FEEL I'M FADING FAST
THE SKY SO OVERCAST
NO SUNSHINE, NOT A RAY
SINCE YOU WENT AWAY

[Krishna]

Hi @JustinSane my deepest condolences to you. All these emotions and physical angst is totally understandable for you to be experiencing. Gosh, losing your mum is one of the biggest losses anyone can suffer and the shock of it all takes time to process and accept. I’ve lost both my parents and in more recent years my sister. Don’t place any big demands or expectations on yourself for a while. Simply go gently on yourself giving yourself permission to grieve. There’s no time limit on this. I do know that in time, the tears won’t sting as much. They’ll still flow but will become softer. Rest when you feel like resting friend and look after yourself. Moment by precious moment 🙏

[FloatingFeather]

This is so beautiful @JustinSane. Sitting with you and understanding what you are going through.

Big hugs,

FloatingFeather

[Appleblossom]

Thank you for sharing your beautiful poems @JustinSane 

I appreciate the craft and tend to like short lines.

I found writing poems helped me express my grief.

I hope with time, you feel better able to engage with life again.

warm regards

Apple

[hanami]

Thinking of you @JustinSane 😥