Checking in

[Shaz51]

Hello @GardensHeart 

How is your day going 

[GardensHeart]

I'm not bad. The hay fever is giving me hard time recent few days. But other than that, I'm good. 

How about you? Any plans for today or this week? @Shaz51 

[BlueBay]

Hi @Shaz51 @oceangirl @Appleblossom @Snowie @Emelia8 and others

thanks @Shaz51 for tagging me 🙂

i am very anxious this morning to the point of crying.  I was supposed to go the gym to meet someone who would take me around before i start a program.  But the trouble is - i can't get there.  I am so anxious that i am staying home drinking another coffee.

i would like to use the hydro pool but am so self conscious of my body and feel judgement from others as well.  i know this sounds stupid to others but i am very very self conscious of my horrible which i hate.

i just can't do it.  feeling terrible, hopeless and a failure because i told my psychiatrist last week i would go today, how bad am I?

[hanami]

Morning @Shaz51 !!!

How are you going today? Housework full steam ahead by the sounds of it 😍

[Snowie]

Hi @Shaz51 Hope you get what you want done today. Perhaps afterwards you can do something nice for yourself.

Hi @BlueBay totally understand hon. Was meant to go for a tour of a gym the other week and chickened out, brought out too much anxiety.

It's hard getting out, let alone going to somewhere like a gym with other people around.

You are not a failure nor are you bad. You are human hon. It doesn't sound stupid to me. I think a lot of us are self conscious about our bodies.  Perhaps you could set up another tour. We will be here whatever you decide.

[Shaz51]

hello @GardensHeart , @BlueBay , @hanami , @oceangirl , @Snowie 

you are not a failure @BlueBay my sister, things just happens.

very hot up here today so hubby drove me to all the shops to do bills, meds ect so I brought a Hot chicken and gravy rolls for lunch , yummm 

floors done , washing done , dishes done , 

Coffee time 

[hanami]

Sounds like you can take a well deserved break! Good going @Shaz51 

[BlueBay]

you've done a great job doing all those things today @Shaz51 well done!!!

[BlueBay]

thanks @Snowie 

when my anxiety is high i just want to veg out at home and cocoon myself

i don't want to see or speak to anyone

i will see how i go end of the week. hope you're okay. xxxx

[Snowie]

@Shaz51 that looks delicious!

@BlueBay totally understand the anxiety hon. I shut myself off too. It is really hard to venture out at times.

All you can do is try hon. We are here for you either way 💗