A long rave

[Zoe7]

Thank you @eth Just need to get through tonight and hope tomorrow is better.

I was thinking exactly the same thing as I was driving home @greenpea There seems to be too many obstacles in my way at this school - the principal, other teachers, my mother... not sure I can overcome all of that or if I actually have the strength to try.

[eth]

@Zoe7 It does seem to be a lot to overcome.  I hadn't picked up that your Mum is involved in some way too.  Want to talk about it?

[greenpea]

@Zoe7 The thing is do you want to try and is it worth all the effort or whether a new job would be like a dose of fresh air. A chance to meet new people, make friendships and to shed you old skin for a new energised Zoe7. 

How does the old saying go a change is as good as a holiday and you know you will have us all here to support you 🙂

[Zoe7]

My mother is the school business manager at the school which adds another level to it all as she doesn't have any idea what I have been dealing with - no-one in my family does @eth 

I am really starting to think that I can't do this anymore @greenpea I need to keep going with it for now though as I need the money - then in the holidays look for something else - not even sure what I would be looking for though - it really is too hard for me at the moment.

[greenpea]

@Zoe7  We are here for you Zoe7 don't ever forget that. xxxx

[eth]

It all sounds just too tricky @Zoe7.  I totally understand you feeling like it's all too much.  Sending you support and the strength to get through to the holidays, if that's what you decide to do.  As @greenpea says, we are here for you.  And so is Toby xx

[Zoe7]

Thanks @greenpea @eth My head is all over the place tonight and I don't know what I need right now - lots of Toby and Cat hugs coming I'm sure. I really think I need to get out of teaching - especially in that school if nothing else. Just feeling totally deflated.

[eth]

How about a nice long bath @Zoe7 or curl up with a movie or a book - what can you do to put it out of your mind for tonight?

[Zoe7]

I'm going to take my meds early and try to sleep @eth Hopefully tomorrow will be a little better.

[eth]

Take care @Zoe7