@Zoe7Is the weather more reasonable? We have had a few lovely days here. Though when I went to zoo it was rainy with big puddles.
Are you managing any art?
I also have seasons of reading.
I really appreciated your story about grieving your mother through sharing authors. @faithandhope
My mother did not read. Only religious repetitive liturgies. SHe made a virtue of ignorance which was not at all helpful for us. I was shamed for reading novels and so became more scientific, did literature was good but not my first choice as she raised me to believe it was time wasting. I felt justified reading when I was bookclub co-ordinator. It is good to just read for me ... for learning ... about interests and obsessions. Novels as entertainment or escapism is a fairly new thing for me. I read a bit as a kid but mother guilted me so much I never knew if I was arthur or martha, and then it was to work.
I actually loved my mother til I was about 40 .She seemed regal in her own unique way. I shared a lot through music so that seemed to fill in the gaps like talking about life and ideas or books which was my father's style.
She actually shocked me a lot by incredibly bitchy things with music pieces in the last years of her life. My love of her was more wish fulfillment. I did not see her very clearly. I dont feel a lot about her since she has died, mostly a quiet sadness and disappointment. At least it is not the agitation which was more common for me in last years of her life. I feel important lessons for me to learn is to be more guarded and this boundary thingy..
