~ Toolshed 2: Power Tools for Recovery ~

[PeppyPatti]

How doctoring of so many people to tag ? Your messages often match what I’m going through ………

thank you @Dreamy 

@Jynx @Rosepetal96 @Bunniekins 

[Dreamy]

My sweet @PeppyPatti, you're so very welcome ❤️

[Rosepetal96]

@Dreamy , likewise. I felt a bit overwhelmed and exhausted this afternoon after work. I worked a bit longer today and it's a big adjustment after having 4 months leave of absence. 

I was hearing when you randomly cry it's your trauma healing... because you're at a point where you can feel a sense of "normality" again .

I did not like that. I named the emotion and tried to sit with it though. My foot is hurting too 😫 

[Dreamy]

@Rosepetal96 can imagine it would be exhausting and overwhelming after having 4 months leave of absence. It will take time to adjust again, but you'll get there, just be gentle with yourself while you are adjusting ❤️.

Yeah I'm not sure if I particularly like that term either, crying can happen for many reasons.

Proud of your for naming the emotion and sitting with it, that's not always easy to do. Hope your foot feels better soon ❤️

[PeppyPatti]

Wow @Blackcloud @you really know yourself. 
🧡🌿💝 

however I feel 

that forgiving yourself when you hated yourself maybe : it could be weird to give yourself a break ? 
in the scheme of things brothers and sisters have bullied each other for years. 

I understand what your saying however 

isn’t important that you don’t today ?? Because you write so eloquently and raw at the same time

as well as writing about your your ‘ faults’ or your behaviour it feels genuine time to move differently ? To be joyful inside yourself too ? 
@Jynx @tyme @Ru-bee @Dreamy @Rosepetal96 @Bunniekins @StuF @TAB 

[Rosepetal96]

Thank you for your kind words, @Dreamy 🤗. I guess a lot has happened in the time between when I last worked before my injury and who I am today. So I have changed in quite a few ways, some maybe for the better, I feel like I'm probably a bit stronger than I was before all of this, minor things like all the kids crying in unison used to set me off but that is a piece of cake now in retrospect to all the situations I've been through...

Thank you for reminding me to be gentle with myself, it is indeed important I set aside time to take care of myself as well, not just trying to replicate the former self I was 😅😅😅 I do know realistically maybe that's not quite possible, but I'm working on getting my best foot forward.

Today after work I bought two blocks of dark chocolate and I decided to have a decaf mocha with my dinner because I felt I needed that 😅 

[Blackcloud]

Aww thank you for your very kind words @PeppyPatti they are much appreciated 💗🌸☺️🤗

[PeppyPatti]

The older I get @Rosepetal96 @Jynx @Bunniekins @StuF 

@SmilingGecko 

the deeper surety I have that I survived and it’s our superpower. 

I love @Dreamy write to be gentle be gentle. 
it feel like being gentle and checking for support is all I need. I bet it’s what you need too. 

[Dreamy]

@Rosepetal96 I'm sorry for the late reply, I somehow missed this post. 

It sounds like some of these changes have been really positive which is fantastic. 

You are doing well sweet, one foot in front of the other and you'll get there. 

A decaf mocha with dinner sounds lovely and I reckon ☺️.

[Rosepetal96]

I am so stoked they developed decaf for these things. I have been really craving a caramel latte decaf I got on holiday a few weeks back, and haven't been able to locate it since, maybe I will find it today! 🤞 @Dreamy