not feeling right

[Eden1919]

i dont feel right and i dont know why. nothing specific is upsetting me i just feel really uncomfortable and not right within myself. i am trying my best to keep up with life things but i am struggling and i just want to cry half the time idk everything is just very overwhelming and i am struggling to leave my home and go anywhere even just to the shops and idk i just i dont feel right. 

[tyme]

That sounds so tough @Eden1919 . What have you been up to today? Is there something you can think of to help you break this unpleasant thought cycle?

[Dimity]

Hello @Eden1919 you do an amazing job of soldiering on despite difficulties.  Sorry to hear it's harder than usual.  How are you getting on - are you having a break from uni at the moment?

[Eden1919]

@tyme  i cant think of anything that would help i am already trying everything i can think of and nothing is working so i really dont know. 

@Dimity yeah i am on a break from uni which is good and you would think would make me less stressed but nope that doesnt seem to be the case although idk if stress is even the right word i just feel very weird and not right and off so yeah idk. 

i am trying to distract myself tonight i will try and sleep soon but yeah i am just in a weird mood i guess everything still feels wrong. 

[tyme]

Sounds tough @Eden1919 . Does going out help?

[Dimity]

@Eden1919 I don't know if it affects you but I always feel unwell until I acclimatise to warmer weather. I put it down to being another side effect. I try to drink plenty of water and keep moving, easier said than done, but I do walk every day, and I think it helps. 

Take care. It's not easy.

[Eden1919]

@tyme @Dimity  going out does not help at the moment it is too overwhelming and there are some other complicating factors which make going out very difficult and stressful currently i am working on resolving these issues but there is no quick fix and it will take me a while before i can fix it. anyway idk what would help anymore i feel so stuck and trapped. 

i am trying my best but everything is getting to be too much and i am just expected to suck it up over the next little while idk i really dont know what else to do i am trying my best but that isnt good enough and nothing is good enough in this situation i really feel lost and exhausted it is like i am swimming against a rip only no matter which way i turn there is another rip and all of them lead me out to the big deep ocean into shark infested waters. anyway no matter how hard i swim i am only seconds away from sinking. 

[Dimity]

Hugs @Eden1919 sitting with you

It sounds very difficult and dangerous being beset from all sides 

Are you able to share what's happening for you with anyone or just here on the forums?

[tyme]

Hey @Eden1919 ,

We are sitting with you. It sounds terribly exhausting for you right now. You are doing what you can and that's all that anyone can ask for.

We are here with you. Please know things will get better. Just keep going. When you don't feel you can swim against the tide any longer, just let it carry you.

tyme

[Eden1919]

@Dimity  I have only shared on the forums so far I mean I could try talking to my psychologist I guess but idk.

@tyme thanks. 

i am struggling a lot tonight idk why everything is so hard and I keep getting scared because someone is interfering with and trying to control my thoughts and it is really uncomfortable and I just want it to stop. Everything is just so difficult right now I am struggling to get anything done and I can’t seem to manage anything I just want to cry but I can’t even do that.