Hello

[AlwaysMyself]

That is such lovely feedback from you @heartathome for @RebelliousAngel 😍. It is encouraging to read.

I too must head to bed I think. Hope you all sleep well and get a good rest tonight.

Hope it's a bit more than a trickle-charge of energy. 😉

[RebelliousAngel]

Thanks @heartathome and @AlwaysMyself. I'm sorry, I was trying to reply but my head is full of thoughts that are hard to process. I'm gonna see if I can sleep. Maybe tomorrow things will feel better and I won't hurt so much. 

Good night to you both 🩵

[AlwaysMyself]

Thats ok @RebelliousAngel *hugs*. In your own time, and only as you wish and feel ready. Hope you feel a bit less overwhelmed tomorrow.

[rav3n]

@RebelliousAngel i don't know about you, but sometimes i need to whinge/vent about something to process it and let it out. it can help with feeling a bit lighter, but i know everyone's different! so pls don't feel like you're 'whinging' or troubling us by sharing - we're here for you and i'm sure you'd do the same for us 💜

take your time, and take care. i hope you're able to get some quality sleep tonight!

@AlwaysMyself @heartathome @Shaz51 good night to you all too, take care and rest up lovelies! 💜

[RebelliousAngel]

Thanks @rav3n, maybe I'll give it a shot tomorrow. It's a bit of an unusual feeling for me when I can't pick myself up (mood wise) easily. 

Good night 🩵

[avant-garde]

@RebelliousAngel 

Hey 💜

Your voice is as important as anyone else's here

You may call it whinging but I see it as an opportunity to get to know and support you. 

So often do I wish people would share their issues with me, but they don't 

I find it a privilege and an honour to share life with you and that you feel comfortable enough to be your entire self with me, not just the happy things. 

If we just show everyone our highlights reel, they'll never get the chance to be a part of it or see just how real we are.

[RebelliousAngel]

Hey @avant-garde, this made me teary, thanks for all of this I needed to hear it. I often find it hard to speak up as I've been made to feel that my problems aren't as bad as what others are. You know the saying 'there's always someone worse off than you', that's what's been thrown at me many times. I want to get things out to see if it will help, I don't know where to start though. I feel like my brain jumps from one thing to another and it won't make sense if I type it out. 

[avant-garde]

@RebelliousAngel 

Oh hun, that is a horrible pressure to be under! But I get it, especially in western society, we minimise our suffering, it's not just you and we've all been there. True friendship and healthy relationships, they see our need and give us opportunities where our needs can be met and we can help meet others needs. 

Our sufferings are no less valid than those in third world countries, they may be different, but they're just as valid. 

Our start doesn't have to be glamourous or make sense because you're writing it for you, no one else, especially here. 

My brain jumps too, I don't always write eloquently, but I write for me, no one else and it doesn't need to make sense to anyone else. For those that know and understand me, it makes sense to them and that's what I value. 

You are beautiful

Your voice matters

You deserve to be heard

You deserve to be loved

You deserve to be safe

We all do

[RebelliousAngel]

Thanks @avant-garde, I had things typed out and I was going to post it but I panicked and deleted it. I'm gonna get some sleep, I hope we can chat tomorrow. Good night hun 🩵

[Appleblossom]

Hello all… @heartathome @rav3n @AlwaysMyself @RebelliousAngel 

just checking in 

step at a time here

life is unfolding in its way

I had my last shift with a valued support worker today, she needs a break and she has earned it. I am not sure how I feel. She has prepared me very ethically. I am more socially connected than I was before she started with me and I am grateful. I have enough dates in my diary for life to continue. Feeling sad, but she is reassuring me we can catch up in November. It’s good for me to let go. I have seen her, weekly, for 22 months.

I also visited a friend today. I met her at our church, though the state of the church is sorry and sad. She agreed. She is vulnerable and old. Though I am looking forward, in a way I have not been able to in a long time, I do know we have to integrate our story, so some reflection is needed, so we can find meaning and purpose to have the sense of where to put that foot on the path…

babbling a bit…. But lovely to see you all supporting each other.

Significant natural form

i love this shape, says a lot about life…