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21-07-2016 04:23 PM
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Alive but dead inside
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21-07-2016 04:32 PM
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21-07-2016 05:06 PM
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Hello @Dfm04
I’m sorry to hear how you’re feeling today. It sounds like there’s a whole lot going on. Feeling like the world would be better without you in it is a really difficult place to be. This isn’t something you have to go through alone – there are services available to talk things over. Do you think you could give one of the following services a call? Lifeline and Suicide Call Back Service also have online chat if you don’t like talking on the phone so much.
Lifeline 13 11 14
Suicide Call Back Service 1300 659 467
The Samaritans 135 247
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21-07-2016 05:43 PM
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It sounds like everything has become too much at the moment.
What did you used to do in the past to feel better? Unfortunately I'm just a fellow person with MI. You may wish to speak to someone with experience or maybe lifeline or beyond blue.
I'm sorry I can't offer you any relief from your pain. But I hope you can find some help, maybe just talking to others on this site.
I wish you well
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22-07-2016 10:27 AM
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22-07-2016 10:35 AM
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22-07-2016 11:07 AM
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Hi @Dfm04 just wanted to jump in and say welcome to the forums. I am glad you saw the ad on TV and joined up to be a part of this online community.
I am sorry you were discharged so quickly from the hospital. Unfortunately many fellow members on here can relate to that scenario. The hospital system is so strained people often go without the care they need and deserve. As you probably know, drug and alcohol issues typically need to be addressed first through rehab etc before mental health services will accept you for treatment.
Glad to hear the counselling is helping. It you find talking helpful, chatting on here with your new friends can be a good source of distraction when you're feeling low. Welcome again and take care today.
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22-07-2016 12:39 PM
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22-07-2016 06:20 PM
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@Dfm04 very sorry to read your post. Take it from a recovering alcoholic, it wont help, in fact the problems just come back 10 times worse. As hard as it is, and I shouldnt preach, but dont drink. It is a major depresant and it took me many years before that sunk into my head.
I also felt the same way, and in fact made a very very determined effort to end the pain. It wont help, as it will leave behind a devistated family, who will look for answers.
Please go and see your GP and organise a Mental Health Plan, which gives you 10 sessions with a psycologist via medicare. If you dont like your GP, find another one.
Im going through hell myself at the moment, but having found an excellent GP it has cleared some of the mess out of the way, and whilst the light isnt very bright, there is a small light at the end of the tunnel.
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28-07-2016 09:38 AM
28-07-2016 09:38 AM
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Hi Dfm04, First off, what you are feeling is the most horrific things to try and face. I too have felt like you many,many times at the beggining of my PTSD. If there is anything I can offer you is that there is hope and when everything is so messed up HOPE is the only thing you can count on that wont let you down.
If you are having psychotherepy or seeing a psychologist, I found that you need to be brutal with honesty, spill all of what is consuming you to you therapist, it is not a miracle cure but slowly but surely these feelings begin to become less consuming.
I have had these same feelings you are experiencing and 9 years on they still surface at times but are not as all consuming as what you are feeling right now. With my experience of mental illness there is no sugar coating to sweeten everything, just hard work and developing the mechanisim to get back the desire to want to truley live life again.
You are a very special person in your own right and you would be greatly missed if you left us. If you feel you can't cope please call lifeline or beyond blue, they are both non judgemental and treat you as a person that matters.
I am also on these forums and if you think that offloading on to me might help please feel free. I think as a whole in this forum WE CARE about you and if any of us can make a difference in your struggle, you and all of us have just jumped a hurdle along your road to recovery.
Kind Regards Rexy