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01-09-2016 09:56 AM
01-09-2016 09:56 AM
Captivating silence...
Hi. I am new to this. Felt like I needed to reach out. Like most. I am struggling, and have been for quite some time. I do everything I'm asked, yet I can't seem to find the "right" path, or even any path at that. Everyone around me, seems so content with life, whereas my head is a whirlwind of negativity. Thoughts consume my every moment, I plan everything around my destructive behaviours. And silence... Seems to be the only way I exist...
Is it just me or are there others?
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01-09-2016 01:41 PM
01-09-2016 01:41 PM
Re: Captivating silence...
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02-09-2016 12:30 AM
02-09-2016 12:30 AM
Re: Captivating silence...
You say you have tried everything you have been asked to. Can I ask what thsy were? & who gave you the advice?
I've had really good success with my current psychologist. He's just been a perfect fit for me. But years ago I just didn't 'click' with my psychologist and couldn't learn anything from them.
It's important to find the right therapist for you. You may also need the right medication for you.
I'm happy to talk with you further if you want to
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02-09-2016 10:44 AM
02-09-2016 10:44 AM
Re: Captivating silence...
@pip Hey, I started to feel like a bit of an outcast when I was 15/16. I'm now 27. But I hit rock bottom two years ago, when my mother suddenly passed away. I didn't have the best relationship with her or my family. Once she passed away, I spent most of my time running and then moved into my friends house with her family. Destructive behaviours at the moment - running away, isolation, self harm, not eating and thoughts of suicide.
I have contacted beyond blue, lifeline and acute care at my local hospital. As they see me every time I present for self harm. I do have a list of distraction techniques except in the past three weeks - nothing seems to be helping me. So I spend most of my days just aimlessly driving around trying not to give in.
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02-09-2016 10:51 AM
02-09-2016 10:51 AM
Re: Captivating silence...
@utopia, hey, I have attended every appointment that has been arranged, so I see my psychiatrist every week, I attend my intro to dbt weekly - and am on the wait list to move into the actual two day a week dbt class. I have tried distractions and catching up with people. But at the moment, my distractions don't seem to work, I'm distancing myself from everyone. I have started my meds again, this is my second week straight of being on them. As I stopped them while overseas as I just hated the way I was feeling. Stupid decision now I think about it. But I am just exhausted with waking up feeling the same, and dealing with my constant thoughts day in and day out. I just want a day where I don't have them. I have gotten advice from hospital mental health team, my psychiatrist, lifeline, beyond blue etc. I used to see a psychologist but it didn't work out, so once I start with you dbt course I get one through them. Not sure if that answered everything??
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02-09-2016 12:42 PM
02-09-2016 12:42 PM
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02-09-2016 01:17 PM
02-09-2016 01:17 PM
Re: Captivating silence...
It's awful when your normal distraction techniques aren't workinģ. This must be beyond frustrating.
Please keep talking to lifeline or others on here, until you feel better - such as @pip. I like her idea of a relaxing drive - although I can't do it when I'm too wound up.
Have you read the post on here about the comfort box? May help alleviate some of your frustrations. Worth a try.
Wishing for this to be short lived and that the 2 day dbt brings relief