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You sound like me, I love blurting out things without thinking, even though at times you get that occasional raised eyebrow haha
Yeah writing down things is the best way, If anything use the Note feature on your phone, that one is extremely useful
Haha yeah the life of a Pro Gamer is quite interesting, but seeing the videos and the documentaries, doesn't seem fun at times, hell they say they "Train" for about 12-14 hours, I caouldn't do that 
I can barely sit down and play a game for 2-3 hours without taking a break let alone 12+ hours, but hey that's their lifestyle and I respect that, I'll just put on my Boxing Gloves and life some weiths thank you very much 
I would have to say that HS prepubescent Beaker would loved to have been a Pro Gamer, but he decided to pick up the Rifle instead of the Controller
I know what you mean about Steam I used to be like you, just login and play, but then I started to check out the Store and that's where I fell in love. However, if you're iffy about the Steam Store I would suggest you check out IsThereAnyDeal for THE BEST deals...
Aye on Nirvana, NiN, Tool, good taste my friend
I feel you on the obstacles you gotta face with fitness, I would suggest you get a pair of dumbells, medicine ball and kettlebell, that will definetly open up your possibilities...
Cheers
My nephew wanted me to buy him a Tool CD .. but the mammas and the pappas all thort it was Devil's music .. I tried to pleez them all but I guess you cant.
The only metal gig was in the late 70s I went to was to help sound engineer and take in door money .. they thourt cos I rode a motor bike and wore a leather jacket that I would look cool ... I did the job but it was aweful not what you would call music ... ... I am often a girl before her time but ... I prefer Bach
A few years ago a composer from the MSO gave me some old Metallica Bass player books from his son also a composer ... sometimes I enjoyed playing them on the grand piano ... didididid .. it helped my son see there was a world bigger than Queens of the Stone Age ... then he found Bach too ....
What Assasin's Creed are you currently playing? The last one I played was Black Flag, I love the Multiplayer on AC, unique and kick ass 
Have you heard of the Humble Bundle? If you haven't I recommend you do!
I suggest you use the dumbbells again, start off slow so you won't get burned out or injured (3 days per week)
The Govt. offers a lot of services to returning soldiers, well enough, the only problem is that MANY soldiers don't look for those said services, like I mentioned in the beginning, when I came back I didn't look for any help, that's the typical young soldier who gets back. Once I started to go to the VA and seek the help I realized how many benefits I have acquired when I became a Vet, I DON'T ever have to pay for Medical Services 
EVER! Idk how much It cost over there to go to the ER, but It's around 1k USD here, I can go to the VA at any time and It's Free, My School Tuition is paid for as well, I attend a Community College (Junior College) and I get paid, I'm also receiving a Monthly pension, that it will stay with me until I RIP, the Army is basically saying "Hey were sorry for messing you up, here take some Money" It's a benefit that stay with me regardless how much money I make per month, It pays for all my bills another benefit is: That when I have a son or daughter, he/she will be able to go to any College in the US cause I'm a Vet 
There's other more benefits out there, especially all the stuff the VA has to offer, oh and I get a free pair of Glasses from them every year. However, like I said not many soldiers look for the benefits and well not to sound like an A-Hole, but alot of the older vets expect to be spoon fed. They just want to sit back and have the VA do their work for them, the Truth is: you have to be consistent and aggressive with the VA, yes they are entitled to get those said benefits, However it's a two way street, know what I mean? They won't just hand them over, you have to keep at it, that's how I got my stuff, I remember hearing Vets saying "I have been trying to get my Pension for 10-15 years"
When I heard that I *gulped* But, believe it or not I kept going at it, in my days off I was at the VA all day, filling paper work, running around and I got my pension in 2 years, I'm currently in the process to get a "Raise".Apparently Depression and Sleep Apnea may get me that raise...
There's a PTSD group which I want to attend again, the things they recommend Meditation, Breathing Techniques and well me personally just deal with it, there's not much I can do tbh. I just know what to expect, for example, Once I get the nightmares and the anxiety issues, the lack of sleeping, then I know that Depression is close by, I do however, stay away from things that escalates things. I love Battlefield (game) But, at times I can't play it cause I get a flashback or two, I don't like CoD cause It always messes with me, I can't stand fireworks, on 4th of July I usually lock myself in, get drunk and listen to music to drown out the sound, I remember when I came back, I went to Disneyland freaked out during the Fireworks show, I'm not a big fan of Haunted Houses or getting surprised in general, once I punched someone in a Haunted House cause they surprised me, those are the kinds that trigger me and I do my best to avoid them.
Boxing has been the best Therapy for me, It has been a blessing...
That's an interesting story, I also have those "That's the Devil's Music" members in my Family, hilarious. If you like Tool, check out A perfect Circle, It's a Super Group, has a Tool sound. QOTSA is dope, but there is a bigger world out there, what kind of music does your son like?
You play the Piano? Check out Avenged Sevenfold's Fiction, It's beautiful! I wander if you can play that 
Cheers!
Yeah i am playing assasins creed revelations, and i am a big fan of black flag.
Yes i used to do weights and cardio 7 days a week, i do usually what you said start out slow, my father was a martial artist and trained me to do weights properly.
It is good the government looks after the soldiers, i have to tell you i am anti-war, but i don't blame soldiers, it is the governments i blame. Please don't hate me for it.
It is a shame the government does not focus more on treatment, money is great, but as you said, if you are mentally unwell money is of little use, i am so glad you know the warming signs and know how and what to avoid.
Have you thought of taking up yoga or tai chi, they might help you with depression/anxiety, taichi will help with your fitness to. maybe worth something to look into.
Yes i understand you must find it really hard to play war games, and i can understand the fireworks, but drinking is not a way to deal with it, have you thought of ear plugs to "soften" the sound, i get startled very easily, so i ware those builders foam ear plugs most of the day, it really helps.
I am looking up the humble bundle now, thanks for the tip. I hope you are doing ok, keep up the good work.
Take care, Be kind to yourself
Jacques
