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02-09-2021 12:09 AM
02-09-2021 12:09 AM
I'm in a really bad way
I'm in a really bad way. I'm not looking after myself at all. I have been online too much and it has affected my mental health in a negative way. I didn't see it coming. I wish I had paid attention to the signs. I have been in bed all day and I'm not eating or showering or cleaning my teeth. I have been drinking some water but not enough. And I haven't fed my Pug today. I will do that now. I don't understand why I let myself get this bad. I have never been this bad before. I think I must be blaming myself for something. I think I'm being extremely hard on myself like I'm punishing myself. I don't even know how to explain how I feel but I'm a mess. I wish I could be more loving towards myself. I wish I could look after myself. I'm not sure if I'm making any sense and I'm finding it hard to write. I'm not having any suicidal thoughts; I'm just severely depressed. I'm going to feed my Pug now and then I will have a shower.
I have just realised something. I think I have let myself get like this because I haven't been wanting to face my problems. I think I have been running away from them by going online too much. It has all been too hard to face. I think I'm struggling with the changes in my life and I think I'm afraid of the future.
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02-09-2021 12:51 AM - edited 02-09-2021 12:52 AM
02-09-2021 12:51 AM - edited 02-09-2021 12:52 AM
Re: I'm in a really bad way
I called Lifeline but they weren't helpful. I'm so lonely. I don't have anyone to talk to. I'm really at my lowest.
Okay, I'm going to have a glass of water and feed my Pug, and then I will have a shower.
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02-09-2021 02:39 AM - edited 02-09-2021 02:40 AM
02-09-2021 02:39 AM - edited 02-09-2021 02:40 AM
Re: I'm in a really bad way
I took my Pug for a walk. I could because it's such a warm night.
I opened up the windows and let some fresh air into the house. I have been stuck in here for days.
I'm going to see if I can find something to eat now and then I will have a shower.
I'm so lonely and sad.
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02-09-2021 05:39 AM
02-09-2021 05:39 AM
Re: I'm in a really bad way
I made a salade niçoise. I didn't have any green beans so I used asparagus. I didn't really like it. I think I'm sick of salade niçoise.
I put a treatment in my hair and had a shower. I might watch one of Ediya's Reiki videos now.
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02-09-2021 09:15 AM - edited 02-09-2021 04:27 PM
02-09-2021 09:15 AM - edited 02-09-2021 04:27 PM
Re: I'm in a really bad way
My goals for today are:
Go to the supermarket.
Take my Pug for a walk.
Feed my Pug.
Do my affirmation in the mirror.
Make chilli beef.
Make vanilla chai.
Drink water
Have a shower.
Take my vitamins and antidepressants.
Put the recycling bin out.
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02-09-2021 10:51 AM
02-09-2021 10:51 AM
Re: I'm in a really bad way
Hey @Arizona
I just logged in and saw your posts.
Its hard when we are on our own. The day in day out monotony can really get me down. You actually do a lot of good self care, and so a day here and there is not that big an issue. Go easy on yourself. We cant be perfectionist in "care". It is a much more organic and human process, of accepting the "warts and all" of our inner and outer lives.
Hope your pug enjoys his walk. He is lucky to get them. I have had to use the "essentials" as a guide in life to get my butt moving. Yep water and for human and dog.
I wondered why you chose Arizona for your new name?
Re time lag in responses, I log on and off at random times, as I need to get off puta more. Probably same for others.
Take Care
Apple
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02-09-2021 12:23 PM
02-09-2021 12:23 PM
Re: I'm in a really bad way
Sorry to hear your situation, thanks for sharing. I am in bad situation too, but just got to cope as best I can day by day, no one to look out for me. Just got to accept my situation. Regards, Owen.
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02-09-2021 02:10 PM
02-09-2021 02:10 PM
Re: I'm in a really bad way
@Arizona @Owen45 yes day by day we move forward. I feel for your struggle right now, you're doing it tough. So glad you have your faithful pug @Arizona I hope your supermarket shop includes a treat or two for them.. I lost a cat and the survivor is having some behavioural issues, our furbabies pick up on things. And glad you have your piano @Owen45 .
I hope you can breath some light into the afternoon and know that someone cares.
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02-09-2021 02:26 PM - edited 02-09-2021 02:34 PM
02-09-2021 02:26 PM - edited 02-09-2021 02:34 PM
Re: I'm in a really bad way
Hi @Appleblossom ❤
Yes it is hard being on your own. I talk to myself all day like I have Alzheimer's. I'm lucky to have my Pug with me. He has just joined me for a cuddle.
Yes I agree: doing the basic essentials like going to the supermarket, showering, and walking my Pug makes a difference to my wellbeing.
I'm trying to limit my time online too.
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02-09-2021 02:33 PM - edited 02-09-2021 04:29 PM
02-09-2021 02:33 PM - edited 02-09-2021 04:29 PM
Re: I'm in a really bad way
I did my affirmation in the mirror.
I went to the supermarket.
I bought my favourite organic chocolate.
I fed my Pug.
I made a cream cheese dip with onion and chives.
I made vanilla chai.
I put on a load of washing and hung it out.
I've been drinking water.
I took my vitamins.
"I love and accept myself exactly as I am."