Hi @BPDSurvivor thanks for your message checking in
I'm not bad, but not great either.
I'm very flat, tired and waking up at least 2-3 times during the night, my bladder is not good atm.
I;m seeing my doctor on thursday, so he may send me for a pelvic ultrasound to see if my fibroids are pushing on my bladder.
I saw my psych yesterday, crying so much, feeling so deflated, so lost in life. feel like we will never sell our home, no offers yet. she said to me that i am too isolated on my own at home and this is not good for me. i told her i can't do any hobbies that cost money as i can't afford it. she has suggested i try to join a knitting group at a community centre, but i am not easily able to do that. i find it extremely hard to join groups on my own. i am very shy, sensitive and not able to do this.
we spoke about my eating disorder and she is concerned about my behaviour around this and actions i am doing. she is thinking about me seeing a specialised dietitian. I told her not for now it would complicate things.
Reg the DBT group i was going to start in July - after my psych writing a report letter outlining why i need to do the DBT she received a letter back last week denying me to do the therapy.
I am at a loss as to why; but she has said that she will give them a call to ask the reasons why.
I have been feeling shaky for a little while which could be a side effect from one of my meds. I told her yesterday and she said to monitor it and let her know in 2 weeks when i see her. I may have to come off it. It is a mood stabiliser.
@BPDSurvivor how do you deal with no motivation? like when you can't be bothered with anything or life - how do you get your motivation back?
OK, i better go and eat something, i am feeling a bit faint and shaky.
hi to my friends @tyme @Snowie @hanami @Bow @Shaz51 @Emelia8 @Owlunar @MDT @Anastasia and others xxxxxxxxx
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